such nonchalance

i laugh out loud to myself, struggling
daydreams of bed scenes in line at the grocery store
you're everywhere i swear
got me losing my keys and fumbling

just go, already, i think to myself
but it doesn't help how hard you make me laugh
and you understand me
which is a feat in and of itself

i'm the fly on the wall and you're so unaware
i see your daily routine and you brushing your teeth
falling back onto your bed watching the game
you think you're alone and you don't even care

soon i know you'll find an excuse to come and stay
any reason you can think of to talk about nothing
we'll drink and laugh and talk about silly philosophies
you'll sleep on the floor and me on the couch, by the way

at my convenience the heater will be broken
but i won't tell you what we both knew all along
we'd be good we'd be great together
and here i am again, arms heart wide open