It's true.

I'm pregnant. [Insert gasps, screams, laughs, etc. here.]

Now that that's out of the way.. I have SO MUCH to get off my chest! Last night I finally got the nerve to tell my entire family, and in doing so I decided I'd just rather everyone hear from me on here.. so there's no question and no rumors flying about. "Go straight to the source," I always say! Now I can finally be excited! :)

Believe it or not.. everyone reacted the exact way I expected. I had so many people saying "you never know who will say what" but I pegged it, totally. Most are supportive (even if they don't AGREE with the situation), and some are not.. but this is a situation where you kind of just have to take everything with a grain of salt and move forward. Single (young) mothers have enough stress to deal with.. the last thing we need are the people we care about giving us hell.. and honestly, I couldn't care less. I am taking the high road.

To clear up a little of the confusion.. no, this was not planned. I am not in a relationship/going to be in a relationship/getting married or even with the baby's father. Furthermore, I don't think who he is is important to anyone. Not only that.. but I at least have enough respect for him (considering I have no idea who he has told/and whether or not he has any respect for me or the situation) to keep his name out of it until I am given the go ahead. Who needs to know, knows. He has not impressed me so far into this... maybe one day he will come around.. but until then this is my baby and that's all there is to it. Enough said?

Finding out that you are pregnant (especially at 19) is one of THE biggest life changing events that can happen in your life.... and honestly, I could have chosen the easy way out - but I didn't. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, and while I struggled with the idea for a few weeks, I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't think I could live with that decision for the rest of my life. Not to mention, if the Divine One is going to trust me with a life, all I can do is make the best of it.

I've heard the horror stories, and I know that this is going to be hard. Very hard. I have chosen to accept it for what it is - after all... I should be the most excited! (I'm working on this whole concept of optimism... can you tell?) Basically.. if you want to hop on the support train, go ahead. I will most certainly need all i can get.. but if you don't, that's fine, too. This is my life and I make my own decisions.

After all, by May 14th, I'm going to be a mom!