11.23.2007

you don't get what you deserve...

...and be very thankful for that.

i'm in a very weird place in my life.. a lot of changes are happening, within my body and in my life in general. the past 6 months have been some of the most challenging, yet rewarding (so far) in my life. on a day where i should be writing a blog on what i'm thankful for, i can't think of a single thing to write. i've never been good with the specifics, and this is just a prime example. i am the absolute happiest right now, with my life.. with everything. no, i'm not the richest. i'm not the prettiest or most well-behaved... but there's not one single thing that i'm not thankful for at this point in time.

things don't always go according to our plans... i've said that before and i'll say it again. however, they can. you have the ability to change your future.... with your thoughts alone. i wake up every morning with a decision to make the best of life. no matter the cards that are dealt, or the obstacles i'm presented with. you can either be happy or miserable. it's as simple (and as difficult) as that. i think the problem is that most people don't want to take charge (or blame) for things that go wrong.. but you know what. i do. i'm a big girl. i can handle it.

like i said.. the past 6 months have been unbelievable, in good ways and bad. two things i have come to cherish, though, are family and friendship. i have gotten so much closer to my dad, jo (the other mother), and my sister.. it's unbelievable. there's such a history w/ my dad & jo that it's truly a blessing to have them in my life, doing all that they do for me on a daily basis. i could never repay, or thank them enough.. but the amazing thing about family is that the only repayment they expect is love (but when i get rich i swear i'll give you money, lol). as for my sister.. there's almost 8 years between us so we were never close when i was younger.. she was always too cool and i was way too annoying. now that we've both matured and both lead our own lives, it's pretty cool to know i'll have a best friend, no matter what, until the day i die.

as far as friends go, this has been a very trying time. one thing i've come to learn, is that no matter how many years you go without speaking or seeing each other.. no matter the fusses or arguments... TRUE FRIENDS are always going to have your back when you need them to be there. abby gayle carver is my love. without her i don't know what i'd do. she's taught me so much.. and i truly love her unconditionally. the whole soul mate thing? yeah. she's my soul mate, i think. then, there are other things i've noticed... once you join the whole MOM sorority, the past simply doesn't matter. i've gotten a lot closer to people who i NEVER thought i would.. (teresa tapia, this is for you, lol).. but it's amazing. really. another person i've got to say has helped me the most is miss elizabeth ashly... =) another one of those long-term friends.

basically... what it boils down to this thanksgiving, as cliche` as it sounds.. i am thankful for everything.. but most importantly, i'm thankful for life.

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