such nonchalance

i laugh out loud to myself, struggling
daydreams of bed scenes in line at the grocery store
you're everywhere i swear
got me losing my keys and fumbling

just go, already, i think to myself
but it doesn't help how hard you make me laugh
and you understand me
which is a feat in and of itself

i'm the fly on the wall and you're so unaware
i see your daily routine and you brushing your teeth
falling back onto your bed watching the game
you think you're alone and you don't even care

soon i know you'll find an excuse to come and stay
any reason you can think of to talk about nothing
we'll drink and laugh and talk about silly philosophies
you'll sleep on the floor and me on the couch, by the way

at my convenience the heater will be broken
but i won't tell you what we both knew all along
we'd be good we'd be great together
and here i am again, arms heart wide open

your love is on fire

please stand back while i take a deep breath
what i'm about to say could be the death
of me
i'm really trying not to like you so much
trying to fight the feelings, to hate your touch
but it's just not that simple
i hear you in every love song on the radio
i see you in every moon even though
you're gone
i close my eyes and the words just swim
from my head, to my fingers, to the brim
i let them out
and even though it's dangerous i don't care
i'd rather risk it all with you than be alone and unaware
of what could've been
i hate waiting for the phone to ring, to hear
your voice makes me totally melt, i swear
and i hate it
you make me wanna scream, kick you out for good
but i know that's not what i'm gonna do, or what i should
so i just wait
and there you go again, saying something perfect as always
telling me to hold on because there will be better days
and i believe you
i trust in you like the newborn baby and his mother
i trust in you like you're my breath and i'm under water
not drowning of course, it's impossible
you tell me where and i'll lie down
you tell me when and i'll count it out
the time is endless
you've given me the eyes that were stolen
my heart is back and now it's growin'
bigger than ever
and you've filled me up, it's unbelievable
the feelings are inconceivable
i'm home